>> Sunday, July 20, 2008
First Reading: Micah 6:1-4, 6-8
Gospel: Matthew 12:38-42
Then some of the scribes and Pharisees said to him, "Teacher we wish to see a sign from you." He said to them in reply, "An evil and unfaithful generation seeks a sign, but no sign will be given except the sign of Jonah the prophet. Just as Jonah was in the belly of the whale three days and three nights, so will the Son of Man be in the heart of the earth three days and three nights. At the judgment, the men of Nineveh will arise with this generation and condemn it, because she came from the ends of the earth to hear the wisdom of Solomon; and there is something greater than Solomon here."
"Teacher we wish to see a sign from you." Matthew 12:38
Every now and then, I would go on a personal retreat to re-evaluate myself and find out where God is leading me. I find these retreats a time for me to contemplate on God`s words, discern what he wants of me, and see how I have lived my life so far. It is also during these times when I realize that I have doubted my God at points in my life when I can`t seem to get what I want or get things to work my way, times when a situation just hurts too much that I begin to wonder if he had already forsaken me.
As I comtemplate more on these doubtful moments in my life, I realize that I would never get things to work if I only wanted it to work. I must allow God to work in me and give my full trust in Him, and allow Him to take control of my life. For these doubts to go away, I must have the faith and the belief that with the Lord, I am in good hands.
How about you, when have you doubted God? What brought about these doubts?